A friend just died....

[angelous]

I had a friend murdered a block away from my house a little bit ago, and I wanted to say that this might affect my activity, as well as my ability to rp for a while. I doubt it'll affect my activity too much, cause I'd rather be doing something rather than nothing to help keep my mind off of his death, and this is the only thing other than t.v. that I have right now that I have the will to do. I really don't want to be alone right now, and even though I'm not actually near you guys, I think its the closest to being with a person that I can get during the day for a while, especially since I can't go anywhere without a police escort for a while. Just thought I'd let you guys no this in case I don't get on for a while or in case you guys wonder why I'm not posting any rps.

[Iris|Kairi]

I'm so sorry to hear that. How terrible. ;-; -super huggle-

I'll be praying for you, okay? -pets- We're all understanding here, so just take your time.

[angelous]

Thanks Iris, but I'd rather I had amnesia so I wouldn't have to deal with the pain. That way, I wouldn't have to have my friends and family, or even you guys worry about me. I'm not a big fan of that, the only reason why I posted this thread was so you guys knew what was going on.

[Iris|Kairi]

But you don't have amnesia..nor can you get it on command so you just have to try and deal with it the right way. And I'm gonna worry whether you like it or not, cause I tend to care too much for my own good about online people (I guess cause I can't see their faces? O.o), so I'm a natural born worry wart. XD

[angelous]

a natural born worry wart eh.... Well while I wish for what I said plus for the fact that it would've been me or that he would've waited an hour or so, I know you're right. Wishing for something like that will never happen, even with amnesia I might remember eventually. I guess right now the only thing I can do is tough out the pain and hope that it gets better. Don't worry about me doing something stupid, my friend's parents have already told me that if something were to happen to me because of this it'd be like losing a second son to them. Not to mention Jarik wouldn't be to happy either...

[Violinist]

Sorry to hear that, Angy. I can't imagine how painful this must be. I'll always be here. Most of Final Mix will always be here and ready to help.

Gimme a holler once your muse gets out of grieving and maybe we could RP, yes?

~ Vio

P.S.

Police escort? What the hell? Are you under suspect or are they just for protection or something?

[angelous]

its for protection. the cops due to what one witness said believe he wasn't killed for money like originally though, and they want me to remain under guard just in case the guy wants to come after me next.

and once my muse comes back vio, I'd be happy to rp with you.

[Violinist]

Wonderfabulicious, Angy! I shall await with childish glee!

Squeeeeee! =D

Perchance your protective detail could be persuaded to the dark arts of roleplaying? Are they gorillas or short, smart japanese guys with kung-fu experience?

[angelous]

no the cops aren't. one of them is the sterotypic cop who has a mustache, is fat and always seems to want some doughnuts. The other is a strict ass cop who doesn't even like it if I talk to her. She told me she is only going to do her job, and that she isn't going to talk to me unless she has to. Then again, she never did get along with my family.

[donald2]

Ouch. Dude. Ouch.

Look, I could come off here saying your stupid for trying to ignore it, or a fucking dumbass for telling us and then staying on, but Im not. Ive had my experience with death, and, I know, it isnt a good one. You need to take some time off man, comfort the family, think about things. Trying to ignore it never helps.

*sigh*

I cannot beleive I am saying this, but, hope you feel better Asa.

[Akito]

Indeed, we're not necessarily the right people to help you with this problem. We're avatars, text and signatures...I'm not sure what comfort you can gain from us; but, if it's alright with you then go ahead.

I'm sorry for your loss. I'll pray for you and your friend as well tonight.

[xxx]

I hope you move on soon, and be all right. Like everyone else has said, I'll pray for you.

Get better and be safe.

[angelous]

Thanks guys, after a few days absence, due to this and having a funeral service for him at his home, I feel much better, though I am still rather sad. I have my muse to rp back, which is good. He was cremated, so instead of a funeral, his family had a little funeral service for him. His family and really close friends such as me were invited, we had food and something to drink, there was a little memorial service where his parents and anyone else who wanted to could talk about him, and after all that his parents and myself scattered his ashes around the biggest tree in their back yard. Then for about an hour after words, everyone talked, whether it was stories about him and things he had done, or whether it was about what they were going to do later this summer with him, a few people even talked about politics for some odd reason, but I think to them it was a lot easier to do then to talk about him.

His unlce was a pastor, so any religious parts of the service were done by him. I also talked to him and he told me that even though Alex (my friend) had just died, a part of him would always live in my heart. Kinda lame I know but it helped out a bit. He also told me that Alex wouldn't want me to try and get vengance, not to mention he wouldn't want me to put my life on hold, whether it be dating, school, games, hanging out with friends, and so on. That helped out a lot. That is why my muse to rp is back, because I know now that Alex would've wanted me to get on with my life, as long as I remembered to keep his memory alive.

Thanks for your guys' and girls' support, I really appreciate it, even though I can't actually talk to you guys in person it helps. And Twilight, I thank you. I know you aren't used to being nice to me, and it means a lot to me that you would be kind enough to me to say what you did. Thank you all guys and gals.

I guess what I'm trying to say now is that I am back, but even though I have my muse to rp back, my replies and such may take a little longer than they usually do.