You should know I lied.

[angelous]

Jarik isn't real, he never was. I created the account, his identity, all that he was, to get away from it all when I was mad, or frustrated, or whatever other reason I could think of. I didn't want to just go without rping, so I made that account back on v1 so I could rp in peace while I let it all out.

And when I couldn't find time to be him anymore, when I couldn't keep up the charade, I paniced, and Jarik disappeared. Then one day I had an idea, a stupid one. I realized people were going to ask me about Jarik, and instead of telling the truth like I should've, I lied. Big time.

I said Jarik was dying, then when I couldn't bear to see people so sad, I lied again and said he was going to live, but he wouldn't be on internet ever again.

Well, Jarik was getting on internet every time I opened a browser. He logged on everytime I did. I am Jarik.

I knew all along I shoulda just told the truth, but I thought that if I did, people would hate me, and, and I'd probably lose the friends I made.

So for those of you who were affected by what I did, what I said, I want to say I'm sorry. I really am. And I ask that you forgive me, though if you don't I don't blame you. Any roleplays I am in with people who this affects, I will leave if they want me to. If I am not welcome on the site for however long, I will leave. I just couldn't keep up the lie. I didn't want to die, and when I go to heaven or hell, or wherever I go, I didn't want people asking me where Jarik was, and then having them mad at me then, cause an eternity is a long time to be mad, especially when I lied for so long. I felt bad about it all, guilty, and so I decided to post here and let you all know.

Again I'm sorry, and do with me what you will.

I'd particularly like to say I'm sorry to Myth, who wrote a letter to Jarik via email saying her feelings. And Shinn as well, because he was going to make a character for the plot based off of Jarik. You don't need to do it know Shinn. And Iris, Kempff, and everyone else, I'm sorry for lying to you as well. You guys cheered me up and what not when I didn't need it for that reason, or for any reason at all.

I'm going to stay active for a while to see what you guys say, and what you want me to do, then if the majority of you want me gone, I'll leave.

I'd say that I finally had that revelation of mine that the good guys or whatever have in t.v. shows and movies, and I did, but it probably won't help my case any, so I won't.

Gravity, you were right when you guessed I was Jarik, and right again when you guessed I was Discord. I made that account for the same reasons I made the Jarik one, though you'd figure I woulda learned from the first time.

I've always told people that the wisest men not only make mistakes, but recognize them the moment they do, and learn from them. I've been told I was wise. Guess that idea just sorta melts away, at least partially, cause people have called me wise for other things.

Anywho, I leave this to you guys now. Have at me.

EDIT: I added a poll for me to check, vote the way you want. I'll leave or stay based off the majority vote.

[Iris|Kairi]

FOR ALL TO KNOW, NO DRAMA HERE PLEASE! I have worked hard to rid this place of drama, and I don't want it coming back. That said, I'm watching this..

And as for me, I am not mad...but possibly because I had already figured out that Asa and Jarik were the same. I didn't know you were discord though. That threw me..but makes sense now. XD

BUt as I would say to anyone, don't leave or stay because of other people. RP and forums are for fun. If you have dun here, stay. I can't say that the people who may be mad will RP with you still, but I'd like to think that RP isn't affected by personal member feelings, because it's supposed to be about the characters, not the people. Also, I'd like to say that FM is more mature than that...and if I see that maturity lowering Iris Wrath will come.

Also, remember. Everyone on the internet makes mistakes. Ye without the first sin, cast the first stone.

[angelous]

As Iris said, no drama in the boards. If you want to chew me out, do it over IM or pm.

[nascent]

Um... wow.

I'll be honest, man: deceiving everyone like that is pretty major. I don't honestly know what to think... since I'm fairly new here and not directly effected, however, I don't think I know enough to weigh in on this. Still, regardless of what happens, I'd advise taking this as a lesson in the value of honesty. If you're going through stuff and it's effecting your ability to be yourself on the forums, let people know. You'll be surprised how open and understanding others can be about that kind of stuff. Living vicariously to escape something does nothing more than delay the inevitable, as I'm sure you now realize.

Still, I give you credit for coming forward with this. Most people in your position would've just jumped ship rather than face what they've done. I'm not going to judge you, since I don't know what you've been through -- that falls to other, more veteran, members of FM. And if Iris isn't going to come down on you, I'm certainly not going to either.

Whatever the outcome, though, I hope you get what's really troubling you set to rights. If it was so bad you felt you had to run like that...

[angelous]

Thanks Nascent. And as I've told Iris, I learned a lesson. As for what happens now, I guess only time will tell.

[tempest]

Everyone makes mistakes and at least you were man enough to admit it, and blah, blah, blah.

Whatever.

You have no idea how upset you made people with your Jarik BS. Not gonna name particular names, but I simply can't forgive you so easily after the pain you've caused my friend's heart.

Stay or leave, it doesn't matter. A RP forum is for fun, so do whatever makes you happiest.

No matter what your choice, you're a jerk. And you owe a particular someone many, many more apologies than this casual crap.

[angelous]

I know Avenger, and part of the reason I didn't do it all here was because that list is more than likely a long one. And partly because I have no idea just who all it affected.

I will say sorry to you though, and like I said in the first post, I don't blame ya for calling me a jerk.

If you believe I owe you an apology, and I don't apologize to you, pm me and I will, because I don't remember everyone who was affected.

[ophelia]

We. Don't. Care. XD

If you're going to be a wacko, that's fine. But don't post total major "confession" threads on the general board. If you need to resolve an issue resolve it over the lovely and ever present "PM". Or the Spam Board.

Gawd. If I wanted Drama then I could have just turned on ER or turned to Queen Kempff. All Hail his Majesty.

[angelous]

XD

I see what you mean Ophe, but if I put it in the spam area, I don't think it'd be taken as seriously as I think it should. Besides, being wacko isn't my schtick until I'm 18. XD

[tempest]

Eh, you did lie to me too, but I really don't care. Didn't 'know' Jarik, so it didn't mean a whole bunch to me more than, "Oh, man. Asa's best bud in the whole world is dying. He must be upset! I'll go make sure he is okay." That is the extent of my individual care of Jarik. My point is, I don't really need an apology.

However, you caused my friends to cry. I sat there with them through it all, and did my best to make them feel better. The unnecessary pain that you caused people through your lies is what I am upset about.

Don't apologize to me. I'm not the one that needs it. Your good friends that cried over your lies are the ones that need the apology. Even then, you should expect broken friendships.

[Iris|Kairi]

...Oh Beastette. xDDD -huggles-

Can I borrow some of your wit? -readies to attack brain-

[angelous]

Name them Tempest, and I'll apologize. Like I said, I don't remember who all I hurt doing this, just a handful.

[ophelia]

This has been another heartbreaking episode of: Days of Our Lives

Tune in next week for the season finale.

[Zero [Axel]]

I lol'd

[♥ kats KAT kats ♥]

Mar 27, 2009 23:25:00 GMT -5 @ophelia said:

This has been another heartbreaking episode of: Days of Our Lives

Tune in next week for the season finale.

Lol. My mom used to watch Days of Our Lives.