Coming Down Easy

[lysander]

HAha, we've got some serious Italian food fans out there, huh? Niiice, I've actually never had this eggplant Parmesan, and the first time I had lasagna was earlier this year.

Tell me more Xemnas. About Slayer.

Fate; tell me about your name. Where did it come from? What inspired you to choose such a powerful four letter word?

[Rolt |The Immortal|]

So. I'm glad I can call Brez a friend (Still gonna call you Brez on the forums ) and my best one at that. He's helped me through so much crap when he could have just pushed me away, and hell he's even letting me live with him so I don't have to move away. I really can't describe him in words here, so I guess I'll just leave it at that. Just wanted to add to his 'About Me' kinda thing

Anyway, for Brez- I told you this the other night; I'll be sad to see you leave RPing here. Thanks for getting me into it, though. I think without you telling me to give this site a shot I'd never have picked up RPing anywhere.

Ahem. Just needed to leave something here >.> I'd have felt weird if I didn't.

[angelous]

I've known Brezz since like version two, if not longer. And I must say, you're an awesome guy, as much of a *insert name of a greek myth person here* as you come off on FM. XD

I'll post more later, but for now I must bid the site good-night.

[Heroic Bilby]

Wot's all this then?

I noticed a certain alluring silver-haired man was not mentioned amongst things you plan to hold on to 'round these parts. A shame, as I'd hoped for their work to explode once High returned as well and our Sephirothian trinity was complete again. But he also wasn't mentioned for dropping either. Should I partake in false hope?

RP for the people? Haha, we are kindred spirits. Despite my well-known love for canon characters, the ones I take because I genuinely want to play them go majorly unused b/c I'm too busy using canons other people wanted me to take in order to help them in their RPs. I have fun either way, thankfully. ^^

I wonder if it's the same for you?

[lysander]

I'm glad to see more people attending, even if just for my self conscious attitude. I love ya'll.

Rolt: It's a gladness to do all that I can, I think. Sometimes you frustrate me, and do things I don't really understand, but I guess that goes both ways. Hopefully we don't tear eachother's heads off while Rooming up. But who knows, it could work out really well.

Angelus: I think so. We met up right before the site got that dark red and black skin, and the anti-form plot. It was in that quest Grav put on where, with my first RP with Lysander, I single-handedly defeated you, Shinn, and Sleepy. *scoff* I really should have RPed with you more, buddy, and I look forward to what more you have to say.

(I have an inkling of an idea starting right now.)

Bilby: Yazoo was one of those things I was unsure of. If you and High were on all the time with your excitement, I'd certainly be excited, because I like Yazoo. But, well, when one of your brothers is working all the time, and the other is off at college, it's hard to sit alone at home and be enthused. If you IM'd me out of the blue, I'd probably drop whatever business I was involved in to RP us three. False hope is unnecessary, when the real deal is right in front of you.

And, I probably am a lot more like you than I realized while I was too busy looking up to you as "The Heroic Bilby". That's a bit of a comfort. Perhaps we can find a way in the world, a coexistence of helping people and living for ourselves. Of course, I'm not offline yet, so if High ever comes back, lets throw something together.

To answer your question, I wonder: you might be right on that front.

[angelous]

Hmmm, my favorite rp character would probably have to be Cal, he's one in the works, but he's gonna be oodles of fun when all's said and done. As for my favorite ability, well, I'd have to say turning Leon into a beast on my site was rather fun, and all of his abilities are of the butt kicking variety. XD

My favorite food would either be steak, pizza, or ice cream. Maybe apple pie with ice cream....

As for a favorite rp partner, I've a few, and by that I mean I could probably list off forty or so right now. Bilbo for one, then there's Northie, though I've only rp'd a bit with her. I also enjoy rping with Emi and Draconas, as well as Ryu and Dei. And that's just to get things started. More general info about myself...

Well starting July I'll be living in Kansas City, Missouri trying to earn a degree in animation (preferably for video games, though doing movies like Up would be just fine). I'm turning 19 come October, so I'm just about halfway there. I'm going to be an uncle come the end of October, early November, but I won't get to see the little squirt until probably Thanksgiving, all thanks to college. When it comes to religion I'm the black sheep of the family, as I believe in a higher power, and no specific religion (no offense to anyone who is religious or is not so). As for politics some of my beliefs may seem socialist, or depending on my mood communist, but overall I tend to lean Independent. And as for Obama, all things considered, I'd say he's doing as good of a job as he can. It's not easy to do what's best for the American people when you have a bunch of idiots in Congress who are only concerned with either making more money, or getting reelected next time they're up for election.

Like Brezz I'm lazy and procrastinate, and although it puts stress and whatnot on me, I work well doing things this way, as I seem to have this unconscious notion that my best work gets done when such is the case.

And since Brezz put up some different things to talk about I'm going to, and then hit on some of my own.

I like it when it rains, or that foggy, misty, might rain weather. Others might hate it, but I feel the most calm when it's like that outside. As for tragedies, well I could name a bunch, but I suppose there are four that really made an impact. My parents divorcing when I was in second grade, finding out my mom was a drug addict and alcoholic and that she had bipolar disorder in fourth grade (combined with not seeing her at all for almost two years), my so called step-dad threatening to kill me, and then losing my great-grandma a year ago last January.

As for utter happiness, I've yet to experience that, though I'm sure finding out I was going to be an uncle was close. No doubt seeing my future niece/nephew and getting to hold him/her for the first time will bring utter happiness.

I'm the oldest of three, and the second oldest of four (yay for divorced parents and half-sibling! DX). It puts a lot of pressure on me being the oldest to set an example for the other two, even though I'm by far the best behaved of the lot of us. It also means that when I slip up, I get the most extreme punishments, such as when I spent over nine months grounded because I failed first quarter biology freshman year. My younger sister, who is currently a junior, has failed around six classes, four of which since she started high school (and is currently in the position where her credits might be held) has never been grounded for more than a month for such things. Enough ranting about that though.

I'm an avid poetry fan, and I'm kind of a bookworm, and as many of you already know, I'm practically addicted to video games and online rping. Outside of the rp world I'm currently working on two novels, one called the Bedtime Butcher, the other has yet to be named, but it's in essence kind of like Legion, or maybe Underworld in the sense of not having vampires that sparkle in the sunlight. It does however feature your stereotypical irish drunken fighter as the main hero, so it's all good. XD

Other than that I'm working on a series of three or four "novel" which is actually one of the first series of my own I'd like to turn into a video game. I'm sure a number of you already know something of it, as Anduras Ardon, a character I had here, is the main character in it. He's not much like his counterpart here though, so don't be thinking you've gotten a sneak peek or anything.

I've not much else to say right now, unless someone asks me.

[Jun]

What in the...you're leaving?!

But you just got promoted! And our quest! And...and...RAWR!

...but I guess it's understandable. I wish you good luck with whatever it is you'll be up against in the future.

[Draconas]

Well, the moments of utter tragedy I've experienced have been two. One was when my parents divorced while I was in the fifth grade, which is when my grades began to slip, and the other is when I thought that the love of my life--yes, I am a bit young, but I am mature enough to know what this feeling is--might not return the feeling, and that it may drive a wedge between us.

Utter happiness? The fact that I have been almost 100% assured that I will end up with her. Just today, actually. Don't ask how, you wouldn't believe me even if I told you.

I prefer a day when it is overcast and there is a slight wind, a warm enough day with a cool breeze. I personally have a belief in something likely very similar to that of Angy's beliefs. I dun like the government too much, but I won't rant about it ;D

@angy: If and when you feel the feeling of love, and knowing that you would do anything for the person, even if you were normally very selfish, that is the greatest happiness one can feel. Love is the most powerful feeling I have ever and will ever feel. And anyone else would do the same.

[lysander]

Drac: I won't get down on you about your true love. Lots of people think it's an age and maturity thing. My personal choice is not to establish a super-committed relationship until I know I'm at a place in my life where I'm not only capable, but ready. You have all my best wishes for a long and pleasant relationship between you both, I believe that no matter what happens, if you choose to, you can be happy. And that should apply to your relationship just as well. No matter what struggles you two confront, be happy.

Overcast and crisp, but warm. Mm, good.

Jun:
Oy, I han'na left yet. And our quest remains as a priority to me. At the time that FSA and Emi are both capable of posting again, I'll see if I can continue it. Thank you for your luck, feel free to take any of mine at any point in time. I have a surplus you see.

Angy:
My head is on your shoulder. You're a good kid, and you have the ability to do whatever you want in this world. Do things.

[Xemnas (I)]

Thanks Brezz. I hope it goes well as well. And I had the same plan...but now I don't want to stick to it. I hope you find someone perfect for you, and that you have a happy life without us. Remember to come visit sometimes...and I don't think I have you on MSN, but I would be willing to give you mine if you wanted to talk sometime. You have a very positive look about you, and a very helpful one too, if you get what I mean...not sure I even do. xD

My favorite things about my characters are their originality. I tend to stay as far away from traditional characters as possible. I made Arc to be unique in the way that he...well, wasn't human. He had that unique quality of him, almost as if he was a draconic knight, which is a bit oxymoronic, considering knights of stories always were slaying dragons...

Slayer is an eight foot tall man who manipulates the elements around him to be the bane of all mages. He is also very much honorable, and is loyal to those who he befriends.

Xemnas...is Xemnas. I like playing him because of his personality. The outlook he has on the world is just...refreshing, in an odd way.

I have other characters designed to be unique on other sites, one is my Nobody who is a cross between the humanoid Nobody and a Sorcerer. Of course, I have other canons as well, on FS especially, Saïx, Bahamut, and Riku. All of which are unique in some way.

My DS character is Draconas, an opportunistic shadowmancer. He will side with the winner, regardless of whom that may be, and will come up with a clever excuse as to why he fought on the opposing side for any period of time regardless.

Think of him as a more mage-like Jarlaxle, those R.A. Salvatore fans out there.

Of course, one might look at it from a psychological standpoint and say that I am creating or roleplaying as characters with unique qualities due to my own need to be unique, and my need to have something that is mine and mine alone. Something that no one else has claim to, something I created, something I and I alone can do. I tend to flaunt those things in my life, find them and exploit them.

Of course, that is just me. Others may have similar psych problems, but mine of course are due to being alone most of my childhood, except for my friends. So I turned to books, and the main character was always set apart, in some way, shape, or form. And I enjoyed that, the main character being so unique, having him be different than the others like that. I wanted that, to be the main character.

But enough about me. Do you have any psychological disorders you do not mind sharing, all of you?

[Rolt |The Immortal|]

Meh. Bipolar. I try not to tell anyone that doesn't know me really well, because most of the time they'll either a) Avoid me because they think I'll kill someone or b) freak out if I ever get mad, and assume it's only because of my disorder that I'm mad

[Fate]

Oh, so this is what happens while I'm in my Shakespeare class.

To the above: that has to be dreadfully annoying. That's why I hate telling people things like that; people make their own assumptions, never bothering to research. Though, most piggish men that I meet assume that a woman is mad because she's PMSing, so... yeah. <<

What do you think of the sky?
T'is a wondrous thing-- I love looking at it when it's nice and sunny out. It was like that yesterday and it was quite beautiful. Today it is dreary and rainy; not so beautiful.

What is your favorite weather?
It really depends on my mood, which is why I love living in New England so much-- you get a mix of weather, temperatures and the like, so you're not stuck with one thing. My favorite kind of days is where it's sunny, about 70 degrees, and it drizzles. I find beauty in the summer rain.

Briefly describe a moment of utter tragedy you experienced.
September 29, 2005.

Briefly describe a moment of utter happiness you experienced.
Happiness has always been a difficulty for me; it's why I remember the happy times as well. I would have to say that one moment of utter happiness for me was when my current boyfriend moved out here to stay in August; he had previously lived in California up until that point. When he had gotten off the plane and he had come through security, it was a moment of ecstacy for me.

Fate; tell me about your name. Where did it come from? What inspired you to choose such a powerful four letter word?
I did actually put a little bit of thought into this name and it has a little bit of history. On the forum that I started on, I went by the name Cynical Romantic; that's who I was at the time. Another forum member there that goes by the name of Mesh, who is from Saudi Arabia, made a bet with me that I could actually get a boyfriend by the end of 2009 or so. He made this bet with me around the end of 2008. Mind you, I'm like Brezzen described-- I won't go into a relationship until I'm absolutely sure I'm ready to.

I ended up meeting this person online a few months before that. We hated each other when we started out; he seemed like an audacious jerk to me and I a Grammar Nazi to him. A few months later, we decided that we liked each other and started dating. Mesh won the bet, and I had to change my name from something other than Cynical Romantic to symbolize my "change"-- if I was in a relationship, that meant I was no longer a Cynical Romantic.

It was a semi-difficult decision to make. I'm rather picky with names and I like them to have some sort of meaning. The name occured to me while I was sitting in an IRC room with a group of friends. They all changed their names to deity or something of the sort (Jesus, God, Death, Life and Satan, to be exact). I wanted something of the like, so I did some Wikipedia searching and looked at Fate. I liked what I saw, especially with the natural order bit, so I changed it to that.

To sum up a long story, I decided to change my name to that on the forums as well-- the admin, a good friend of mine, did not want to change it for me since he liked my other one a lot, but he ended up doing it for me. I stuck with it ever since, even though the relationship previously mentioned ended rather badly. It's partly me being lazy and not wanting to think of another name and me just liking the ring of "Fate".

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I'd also like to say that I'm a lazy procrastinator as well-- it's the main reason I've been scarce lately. I procrastinated on all of my papers and schoolwork, so I had to do them all last minute.

Since I'm bored, I'll answer Draco's question as well before stopping this ridiculously long post.

Do you have any psychological disorders you do not mind sharing, all of you?
I have none that are diagnosable as anything, but I have a few things that make me rather "unique" that have to do with how I think and process information. As I mentioned above, I am a rather cynical person; you could say that I'm the pessimistic realist. I won't hesitate to say that I can be an Elitist as well-- this has shown itself in later years. I'm also one of the most logical people you'll ever meet; I can't survive without logic, hence why Akira is how she is.

Uh... there's probably more, but my brain just stopped and doesn't feel like thinking anymore XD. My MSN is also free if anyone wants it-- it's in my profile and I'm on most of the time.

[lysander]

I sure do know how to ask them questions, don't I?

Drac:
The struggle for uniqueness is a neverending battle. The only way I've found to win it, is to not fight it: Read good books, write a lot, and ask other people's opinions on what you have constantly. Preferably mean people who don't care about your feelings. It doesn't sound pleasant, but it improves your writing tenfold. Just tips from one writer to another.

And from a psychological standpoint, I can't say much without stepping on anyone's toes. So put steel-toed boots on. Once you realize that there's something about yourself you don't like, you can change it. It's hard, and frustrating, but it can be done. I've done it multiple times, and I'm struggling to do it even still. Confronting my undisciplined self sucks; partially because I don't have the discipline to confront it, and laziness doesn't have to fight back. It just sits there. So I don't know if you brought up your psychological Eval, out of a subconscious desire to make it known, or whether it's just another something special to you and it pleases your interests. One way or the other, I care not, it all boils down to the same life lesson I'll preach till I die:

Do what you feel is right.

Rolt:
Shut up, people are stupid. I don't know why you'd care about their opinions anyway.

Fate:
I'll be honest, I was eagerly awaiting this answer. Maybe a teensy weensy morsel more than the other questions I asked. It seems that love is in the air. I'm happy for you and your boyfriend, especially glad that you two came from a conflicted past, because I feel that that's a beautiful beginning for a friendship or an intimacy. After all, if you have dealt with being frustrated by the other, then the only new conflict you'll have is dealing with liking each other. What a terrifying turn for the worse. Of course there are other beauties to these sorts of things, and that's just one I thought was particularly good for conversation.

And how Fate came from a moment in a Chatroom, and now it's hung on to this point. In the grand scheme it's not entirely too special, but things stick with us out of moments don't they? Odd odd odd.

There's more I'd like to say, but I'm wading through an emptiness of words at the moment. Not the right ones anyway.

Aha.

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Psychological Disorders:

PMS- Poetic Motion Syndrome, PTSD- Pretending to See Deeply.
AIDS- Acting in Disreputable Soreness, SARS- Sitting Around Reading Signs.
RSI- Reading Strangers Internally.

I have lots of qualities that are unique to me, just as anybody out there, but my only diagnosable mental disorder is Anxiety, and I probably have Depression. ANXIETY. depression- ZANKIETY, impression. I've been warding both off rather well lately. I get anxious plenty, and depressed more frequently than others, but y'know, it happens. Life goes on. If there's an obstacle in your way you hurl yourself over it, through it, and keep going.

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Thanks for answering my question about the sky Fate. Don't be scared to ask me things too y'know. None of you be afraid. I am an honest knight.

New Questions

What's your worst quality?

What scares you? True, gripping fear. Not that namby pamby "worrisome" stuff.

What is your heart?

What is your favorite music? What videogames do you play? Etc.

[angelous]

My worst quality would have to be that I'm far too shy to tell a girl I like her, yet I've been told that any girl would be lucky to have a guy like me for a boyfriend (mostly from the girls I've been too nervous to tell how I feel). It really ticks me off that I can't seem to get the guts to tell someone how I feel, regardless of what they might say in response. If you wanted to go deeper I suppose you could say that I'm too timid to tell anyone in real life what I'm really thinking at times. There have been times where I've been berated by my dad, constantly put down and whatever by him and I've just wanted to ride his ass about all his faults, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. And it isn't with just him, it's with pretty much everyone. I guess I'm too much of a nice guy who doesn't want to hurt other people's feelings or change any relationships based on what I say.

As for what worries me. For those of you who know (and if you didn't or don't I put it in my last post), my so called step-dad threatened to kill me a few years back. While I myself am not afraid to die, because I understand it's a part of life I can't avoid, it really put into perspective just what exactly I fear. I'm afraid of being powerless, of not being able to keep the ones I love safe when the time comes. I could care less if I die in the process, but the fear of losing someone because I wasn't strong enough, because I didn't try to become strong enough, that's what frightens me. I suppose I don't want something to happen to those I love and then blame myself for the rest of my life because I couldn't do anything to stop it. I realize that there are times when you can stop it, but for the times there are, I'm scared I'm far too weak to do it. The other thing that truly scares me is not knowing for sure what causes the black-outs I suffer from. I could be talking to someone around me, walking to school, or whatever, and then all of the sudden I lose consciousness. If I knew what caused it, I could be treated for it, and quite possibly not be able to ever drive. I'd like to drive sure, but I suppose part of the reason why I haven't been really bugging my dad to get what we need so I can get my license is because I don't want to black out and hurt anyone (or worse) while I'm driving. It'd be something I'd have to live with for the rest of my life, and it's not something I'd want to.

My heart, well it's the organ that pumps blood through my body. XD

I'm going to assume you're talking about it from a symbolical or philosophical standpoint. To me my heart is my wants and desires, my hopes and dreams. It's me wanting to protect the ones I love, and to make those around me happy. It's me wanting to be a good son, a good brother, and in the near future, a good uncle. It'll also one day (I hope) be me being a good husband, and in turn, a good father. It's me doing what's right, even if it's not popular, and to realize when I've made mistakes, and to admit when I have. It's growing up, and realizing when something isn't worth it anymore. I suppose you could add faith and whatever in there somewhere as well.

My favorite music is jazz, and any music that has a jazz feel. I listen to some rock, such as Linkin Park, but jazz is pretty much the core of what I listen to. I tend to play fantasy/action video games. Sure I'll play Halo or Call of Duty (if anyone has Modern Warfare for the PS3, and plays online, lemme know), but games like God of War, Legend of Alon D'ar (a game that's not so well known, but I love it), the Final Fantasy and Kingdom Hearts series, and so on are what I prefer the most.

[Draconas]

Yes, I did need to get it off of my chest, Brezz. I dunno why...

My worst quality is my anger. I have some form of IED, Intermittent Explosive Disorder, so when I get mad, I get MAD.

My biggest fear? I fear many things, all of them equally, however, some are more equal than others. The greatest of them is I have a fear of hurting those I love, one in particular, while I am angry. That has always been my biggest fear.

Other fears include the fear of not being able to control my life, death, and losing those I love. I fear all of those greatly, but the first fear is the worst, I guess.

My heart? Eh, I'm Pisces through and through. I am emotion. I have some logic to me, but I ruled by my emotions.

Favorite music? Eh, I'm in a Rise Against mood at the moment, but I also listen to Smashing Pumpkins, Linkin Park, Coheed and Cambria, Billy Idol, REM, Foo Fighters, Metallica, Billy Joel, Aerosmith, Simple Plan, Pink Floyd, Incubus, Jimmy Eat World, Weezer, Iron Maiden, AC/DC, The All-American Rejects, the Rolling Stones...the list goes on and on.

My favorite game eternally changes. I like Prototype, and I also enjoy the FF series, particularly 7 and 8.

Also, Angy, my advice is just to go with the heart and tell them. It works out better, I found that out the long way.