Post by fonzie on Dec 16, 2007 20:22:09 GMT -5
Soul
I. "Where does your journey begin?"
“My beginning? Hmmm, well, the more I think of it I don’t believe I ever really had a surreal beginning. The beginning of my life perhaps? The start point that leads from point A to point B? If I had a beginning I would say the most changing period of my life was when I woke up that one night—a slight feeling of change on my mind. When I left my world, and when I entered new ones, I think that was the time my life took a turn. When I decided to become stronger and when I had the will to get up and just find some sort of light to lead my way. When I decided to do something about my life.”
II. "What is your goal to accomplish?"
“I don’t think I have a serious goal. I might as well say I have small almost unimportant goals that are too long to even list down on paper. I want to be stronger. I want to meet other people. I want to find my inner self… Often I dream of finding just someone to help me, I also often dream of being the best out of all. I wish to help others, yet I wish to bring revenge toward some, too. My little goals range from highs to lows, often times involving people I do not even know! Weird… I would have to say my biggest goal is to complete… my goals. To complete every single one of them before I die. Ya digg?”
III. "What happens if your fail your goal?"
“If I fail my goal, I think I’d be alright. Of course, I would be DEAD at that time if I actually attempted at it. I’d hope to finish a bit of my goal, to reach high enough I can grasp it. I think just even completing a few stages of the goal would be good enough to call it defeated. Because seriously… Is it that hard to fail at being happy?”
IV. "What happens if you succeed in your goal?"
“First of all, I don’t really want to die that early. I really do want to live a long prosperous life—gradually growing older and older… But if I actually do complete my goal I think it would serve the world right. Hopefully it would cause an impact on how people see how they live, hopefully I would be remembered because of it. In heaven, or wherever the dead souls go, I’d probably be happy up there, I’d be utterly excited just for the small little presents I left back down there in the worlds. But honestly, I’d be happy enough if I only left a small lighted or darkened mark on the earths crust.”
V. "What was one of the hardest decisions you had to make?"
“I was a child back then, an inconsiderate, immature, lonely child who got everything and nothing. My eyes were pale. My skin never was touched by sunlight until I turned 12 years old. I think at that time period, when I was locked up in that cage cell of a place, I thought, and thought, and thought. Constantly. There was nothing else for me to do… I was attached to someone because they were always there physically by my side, and almost everyone in my life called me ‘artificial’. The gate was opened at that time, and that one someone came to help me out of the chains. I think the ideas of leaving… Or not to leave was the most hardest decision that I might even regret for eternity.”
VI. "What was the biggest change in your life?"
“Maybe it was because of departure, but I don’t know… The biggest change in my life was when I grow out of my old self. When I escaped the prison cell. That one person changed myself drastically…. When I moved from one place to another gave me a rather large hit to the head. Even since the day I was born I was always given a sense of discomfort, everything I wanted, and did not want handed to me for free. I was weak back then, but when I moved from that hell of a world and entered a better one had I changed from scrawny and child like to strong and powerful. And that all goes to the people who made me into what I am today.”
VII. "What was the happiest time/moment in your life?"
“Blinded by the fake misshapes of a young age, I still believe my old life was the happiest time period of my living. Many would think other wise, but back then I always felt a certainty of hope, even through the misty fog of pollution and chemicals, through the lab experiments I went through. The scars on my skin and the branded numbers on my wrists tells mostly all of what I have gone through—through the pain and agony, as well as hope and family. I don’t know… maybe I was just strange and confused back then. Maybe the brainwashing sounds made me obey every order even though my body told otherwise. I think the time I need help most in, was one of the most happiest time of my life.”
VIII. "What was the most shocking moment in your life?"
“The most shocking moment of my life happened when I was about 12. It was when I saw [] come take me out of the cell so spontaneously. I hadn’t really suspected the person to come up and just take me out of there… I didn’t really suspect anyone to even care. It was shocking to me because well… at that time it felt like hope was already gone, that I was to be stuck there like all the others. Maybe it was some sort of fate..?”
IX. "What was the darkest event in your life?"
“I had escaped that one night, into the still lighted bright hallways. I don’t think I knew where I was going, or what I was going to do, or what was going to happen. I remember that the heavy weight chained to my ankles pulled me down when I walked, and the whispers of many people were up ahead. I was curious about it, so, like a child would normally do, I kept heading forward until an open door was sighted. ’luceat lux vestra’ I heard a man say, his voice calm and silent. A moments past with a drawing silence through the night… Until the shouts of painful shrieks pierced right through. My knees shook and I feared for my life… I felt scared.
X. "What angers you the most in your life?"
“When I think back the worst thing that angers me was… well, my entire child hood. I mean, who would enjoy being a lab rat in a large cell of a prison? I was pictured as evil, as nothingness in the past. No one even took one glance at me, hardly even paying attention when I walked through the roads when I escaped. I think I was branded with what had happened in those past decades, I was lost, left over for... what? Nothing. I had no point in this lifetime, no one really paid attention, I acted loyal mostly because I had no choice. I hate how they manipulated me into doing their biddings, hating the fact that I had no point in this realm that I was like a seashell on the seashore. Even though they made me into what I am today, just the fact that people would even think of such a bad experiment is just so... inhumane."
XI. "Where does your strength or determination come from?"
"My strength and determination mostly comes from my will to succeed. It comes from that person whom I do not know that helped me out of the hard times. It comes from the past and what I had been put through, from my dreams that will almost never come through. It comes from the invisible guiding entity which forces me to go forward, from that just one little feeling in my heart that tells me to succeed. Rare, and hard to find, the strength and determination normally would be found in my heart."
XII. "Who or what inspires you to succeed?"
"At this point in my lifetime I know almost no one, everybody seems to be leaving to another place, being attacked and murdered by some unknown force. Many had simply broken apart from me, leaving me in the dust. It seems to happen constantly, all of the different people I meet leaving so soon when i just get to knowing them. They are still dear to my heart, yes, but I believe that this one person inspires me to keep going. [], even though I do not know him, I still remember his face, those dark eyes, his large muscular body that carried my meek one out of the chamber. Now, people like him, are those who I am willing to fight for, willing to keep going for."
XIII. "Where does your story end?"
"My story never ends. I believe it will simply circle around, and around until forever and ever. People can hurt me, people can kill me, but even then will I manage to get myself heard about. When I die I will be branded into others minds, I will leave one scarce of my living back down on the worlds. It does not need to be dramatic and ironic, but my presence would be good enough to last long. Like a fire that is never set out, my journey is infinite."
General History
Fonzie was born, [or might as well say created], in a tiny spacing, the laboratory most of her kind is made in. She was named “129”, the one, and probably last race created after they came into a sudden halt. She grew up under the sight of who she remembered “Large man wearing white”, calling him “Virliv” whenever she saw him come into the room wear other of her kind are put. Even though she was set into the world with a real human like body, did not mean she had the brains of an adult. She did not know much when starting out, and continued that way until masked people wearing blue came into the room daily, teaching her academics, Latin, and law. They were her source of education, always ending their lecture with “ab aeterno, ab antiquo, ab extra, adaequatio intellectûs nostri cum re.” [From the eternal, from the ancient, from beyond, conformity of our minds to the fact] She was kept in an all white room with nothing around her, nothing to do, and nothing to play with. She was a child who simply sat thee, anticipating what will go next, hoping that her name would never become called out to the open.
Of course, she was. And often at times in fact. She would be sent to another room which she remembered being “Vivid bright”, a room where she would lay on a strange hard desk, waiting for whatever was going to happen. Normally they would inject some sort of liquid substance that caused her heart to race, or maybe take out the flowy red substance of blood from her veins. Often times she past out flat on the desk, always on the urge of dying right there and then. Yet she didn’t, instead, her mind would keep herself going, not ready to die just yet. Because of that, the men wearing white would call her special, one that is showing more “process” in the lab work. She would always be sent back into the same cell—often times being upgraded into a larger one after she did something ‘good’, like, survive. As she sits there patiently in the new cell she would already know what happened before hand, what happened during that cell time, that someone as unlucky as her past away lending her the new never washed cell. It caused Fonzie to have Claustrophobia, a fear of closed spaces.
Soon when she was 12th years old had she developed some sort of strange abilities. The men in white robes gave her some sort of present…. Two silver small bells that hung around her neck. Nothing really happened to them… They only demanded her never to loose them are place them out of her sight. The bells were almost like a part of her, some sort of object that was created to hold some part of her soul power. She didn’t know what to do with it, she didn’t know what to say. It was like an average day thing…. No big deal that they given her something. They already gave her a number marked on her wrist along with a bad history of being derelict. No biggy. She slept in the cell the next day, oblivious to the strange noise coming from ahead. The pounding walls shook, giving her a sense of discomfort. She woke up noticing a large man in the way, suddenly picking her up and over his shoulders. The memory was fuzzy, but she did realize she escaped nice and soundly, hardly remember anything at all when she woke up in a strange world, a world that was filled with light and fresh air. A world that seemed like complete utopia.