..a bit..emo? [Rant]

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[RANT]

Uuhh, so yeah.. I technically did delete my account, as Iris and High and Bilby noticed. They thought I was leaving, if I was I would have probably left a goodbye message. I don't plan to leave anytime soon...though my activity and roleplaying hasn't been that great, I may just come to be known as just "the Graphic Designer."

this was just kind of a.. "Oh hey, let's see how long it takes them to notice that I am gone" kind of thing.. I was going through a bit of a rough/emo time..

Life for me right now has just been kind of blah, to put it bluntly. I've been staying home most of the summer, the only fun I have really had is on my birthday when Kannon/Mardiax came over to celebrate. I did invite my other friends, but they only stayed for food.. I know one of them had to work.. but yeah.. it was just me, my sister (and her friends) and Kannon. I had fun though.

But..thats the only real fun I've actually had. My mother had hip surgery and I've been taking care of her, stuck at home cause everyone else in the family has work. I've been searching for a job with no luck what so ever. And I'm actually happy to go back to school, just to get out of the house.

What's crossed my mind these past few days... "What if I died?"
Yeah..I know totally emo. I was even plotting in my head, to just disappear and then have someone join up and then say that I passed away.

I know...I'm totally a jerkwad.
I could also de-friend everyone.. like my best friend tried to do to me last fall. And...this summer I haven't felt close to her, same with my other friends.. I haven't seen any of them in weeks.

But..yeah..maybe I'm just at a low in my life or something. I don't know. I just felt like ranting...

Oh, and I just broke up with my boyfriend. Why do they always do the whole "You should feel sorry for me" thing. Let's just be friends, etc etc.. He said he still thinks in his head that we're together...

Ugh. he was so persistent.



Soo....I'm not leaving, as you have noticed I have my account back. You may or may not see me roleplaying....sorry to say. I think I'm losing interest... [If you want, anyone, who wants to RP with me, could set up a private roleplay or something..]

[/end rant.]

[Akito]

Nah, that's cool.

I can understand the feeling, we never really have the connections with people we'd like. And if we do, it's temporal. So we compromise and hope to high heaven we bump into someone we can click with, even just one person, in our lifetime. As for your boyfriend problem, it must be your fault for having been...too amazing a lover?

Guess what? Last low I went through in my life, I deleted my account and left as well.