Post by High's .Valentine. on Dec 13, 2009 5:00:50 GMT -5
Username: Highwind
Current canons: Cid Highwind, Loz, and Xigbar
Canon you're auditioning for: Vincent Valentine
Media canon is from: FFVII series
Is the current canon taken?: Noope
Audition post:
Current canons: Cid Highwind, Loz, and Xigbar
Canon you're auditioning for: Vincent Valentine
Media canon is from: FFVII series
Is the current canon taken?: Noope
Audition post:
A sweet summer day under the tree. A soft timid caress on his bare hands. A basket. A surprise. A love. A loss.[/blockquote]
Thirty years later, he was still losing his mind.
The crimson figure shifted in his nightmare. The red headband made out of rags became moist and heavy as the fidgeting slowly turned into full scale tremors. Swift uneven breaths accompanied low grunts of discomfort and soon, the man was a cacophony of agonized moans and groans. Unable to turn over due to the confined spaces of the stone coffin, Vincent Valentine’s arms sprang to each side of the coffin awkwardly, pushing with heaving effort, as if he could force the claustrophobic walls of his grave apart simply by exerting strength he did not have. The golden gauntlet on his right hand crackled as it was scraped against the grainy asphalt of the stone coffin. Sparks lit his pale, gaunt face, before dying out into a panicked darkness. His eyes remained closed. He was too afraid to open them.
Then silence.
The demon’s arms slipped back into the usual spot at his side, sore and throbbing from his sudden spastic movements, the only exercise he gets in this enclosed space. Uneven gasps of breath slowed to sleepy deep sighs, preserving what little fresh oxygen in the coffin. Someone had left the dying man a small breathing hole. Enough to keep this agony going, and enough to sedate his oxygen deprived brain.
Eyelids twitched. If he opened his eyes, he would be met with more darkness so it made little difference. If he opened his eyes, he would want to leave. Thus, his eyes shut tight, even as Vincent awoke from his nightmare.
Vincent’s nightmares were all similar. A broken record that replayed itself over and over. He could not avoid it, having given himself this punishment of reliving the same pain every day for the past…who knows how long. He could only shoulder this burden. Parts of him, bits and pieces of his conscious that he had discarded eons ago, knew that he didn’t have suffer. Relief will come, he just needed to wait. However, that was the Vincent Valentine of the past. The Vincent today knew of no end to this repetitive torture. Just sleep, wake, and sleep. He waits for nothing, no one except for the day when the world he dwells on cease all movements and the creatures that walk on Radiant Garden disappear, one by one. But that day is out of his grasp, and so, to reduce his torment by just a little, he gave up all hope of redemption. The mercy of liberation was not his to enjoy.
There was nothing else to do except to sleep and dream. Vincent’s only other option left to keep himself relatively sane—or as sane as he would like to believe himself to be—was to think. It was pretty much a cycle. Sleep, dream, wake, and think. Contemplate, reflect, mull over every single piece of his life. Thus, he never forgot anything about Verdot, his leader, every nuances of the lab he had been assigned to protect, and even Hojo, which he would replay over and over in his mind, torturing himself in every single possible way he could think of.
Even the quiet pastime of contemplation did him no good. Vincent could only dwell on his failure, which had allotted for his own downfall and most importantly, his beloved’s. Two crimson orbs appeared within the dim stillness of the coffin.
Anguish.
Utter disgust, spite, for everyone, and everything. Drawing long breathes, Vincent shifted each anger spiked through, letting the savory sting of rage rest on his tender, unstable mind. He had practiced this so many times it had become a paradigm. Gaast, Shinra, Turk, Verdot, Hojo.
Then finally…stillness. Lucrecia. The glowing red marbles blinked out, and the man felt the sleep that came with the tranquility. At the same time, bitter resentment prowled, waiting for him to become vulnerable.
Momentary peace…
There will be no end to his insanity.